As I was walking back from the gym, I felt my legs get heavier and my pace start to slow. I was hunched over and just staring at my feet as I took each step. I was upset. I was annoyed. I was frustrated.
My session at the gym, although not bad, was really tough. Exercises that were easy a year ago were now difficult — and some of them impossible. I felt unfit, unhealthy, and unhappy. With each step I took, I felt dread. How will I rebuild all that I have lost? Will I ever be able to do it again? It took so much time and effort to get to where I was – what if I can’t do that anymore? What if I lost everything? I can’t believe I’m at Day 1 again.
It was at that moment that the song Roar by Katy Perry came on. I remembered the first time I heard that song in 2013 – I was going through a bit of a struggle at that time too, but I fought back and I fought hard. I picked myself up and really turned things around. If I could do that then, then I could do it again …
deadlifts – 1st time post surgery — but NOT Day 1 again
I know that the road ahead of me is a tough one. As much as I’d like to hold on to this sense of determination, if I’m perfectly honest, it comes and goes. I can feel great and on top of the world and the next day feel frustrated and overwhelmed. It’s tough. There are a lot of things I’m trying to tackle at the moment (maybe too many things). Still, one thing became clear. Even though it felt like I was starting all over – Day 1 again – it wasn’t true. I wasn’t starting from scratch. Sure I may have lost the fitness and strength that I had developed over the last few years, but my foundation is still there. I know what exercises work and what don’t. I know how to eat (I just have to follow through). I know so much more than when I first started out — and that’s what I need to draw on. I forgot that I have learned lessons and built a strong foundation. I need to use that foundation to help me rebuild. I know I can do it. I just have to put in the time and the effort. It’s got to be done. Even though it doesn’t feel like it, I’m starting from a much better place than I did all those years ago. In the end, it’s not Day 1.
The next round of the Whole Life Challenge is starting on May 20th, and for me, it couldn’t be happening at a better time! If you want to learn more about the WLC, read this post. If you’re ready to join, I’d love to have you on my Official team – the Worldwide Warriors. To join this amazing support group, follow this link: http://www.whole.lc/wlc1705/pt/warriors.